the howie

I don’t seem to be at home very often these days, and its going to get worse I feel.
Ended up going to soul survivor 3 nights in a row (Thursday, Friday and Saturday). That was good, it was amazing how many people I knew there who weren’t St Stephen’s people. It was good to chat to people. I like chatting and being silly. And all that. The actual content of what I witnessed and was a part of at soul was really good too. I felt really comfortable being there, and I sat and had a chat to God after one of the main meetings and that was good. God is a good bloke. Good to catch up with him a bit. I really enjoyed the talks that I heard from Matt and Mike. Worship was good community was good, God was good, the Krispy Kreme donuts where good, it was all good.
Jo had her birthday yesterday, good old jo. I got her a compass cause she’s always getting lost.

Tonight jo and I went out to dinner we went to GPK in Chatswood (Gourmet Pizza Kitchen). It was nice, only as we where both eating our pizza, I was glancing around the restaurant and I said whispered to jo “maybe we are supposed to eat our pizza with a knife and fork” And the jo scanned the room and noticed what I had noticed. The entire restaurant was eating pizza with their knifes and forks.

Then we saw:

It was a good movie, I recommend it. Jim Carrey is starting ti impress me much more these days, he can act he’s not just a man that pulls funny faces and makes strange noises.

I went to soul last night, twas a good night. Wenta bit later than i had hoped though. YOu see its all part of the new howie, the new howie is fit and full of energy. The new howie gets lots of sleep.

good luck i say.

Why bend your knees to pick stuff up when you can just bend your back

There are two words that I always use to describe my life and they are “fine” and “all right”. They are very versatile words.
Howie how was your day? “oh it was all right”
How are you feeling? “fine”
And they are the only answers I generally give. I’m not sure why I do it, I’m not sure if its cause its easy, I don’t have to think about how I’m really feeling or how my day really was. Or is it that my days are always just “all right” and am I always just feeling “fine”.
Is it like the median feeling of my life, so there are good times and specicif events where I say “that was awesome” and there are things where I say “it was crap”. So if I collate all the good things and bad things and everything in between, and compile a median statistic it comes out “fine” or “all right”.
Or is it because I like people to think that I’m some super stable always the same kind of guy. My moods are reliable because there is only one.
Or is it because I just don’t like talking about myself, well that’s a lie I love talking about myself. But not serious stuff, I don’t cope in serious conversations, I’m getting better at coping with other peoples emotions and feelings but I don’t think I’m at a stage yet where I can openly talk about my own. Its weird. Plenty of people try to delve into the depths of howies head and heart and mind. But I don’t think anyone really succeeds all that well. Maybe this isn’t a good thing. Its probably not a good thing.
The other thing is that say I’m pissed off at something or someone, that feeling of being pissed off generally only lasts a few seconds, I dont like being pissed off, its so boring. So if someone does something that pisses me off I get pissed off but then think why am I pissed off. Its only a whatever.
So its rare that someone will ask me how I am in one of those moments where I am pissed off. And if they did “I’m fine”
Its not a new thing, I have been doing it for as long as I can remember. Maybe its just a bad habit that I have gotten myself into.
How do you stop, I cant just suddenly become a deep person that exhales all their emotions and feelings and thoughts. I don’t know if I want people knowing what I think or feel, they are my thoughts, for me and my feelings for me. Not all thoughts and feelings are made to be shared. And if they are then I’m stuffed.
I don’t really know what other people think, people who have known me for a while probably just think “oh its just Howie” but people who don’t know me all that well probably think I’m some cold heartless person who has no emotions and feelings and stuff.
I do have feelings, I do have emotions, I just think they might not be as deep as some other peoples. I never find myself in deep thought on any topic really. Maybe I’m a simple man. Who knows. I’m confused.

That’s enough I think.

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just went out to dinner with jo, james and linoel.
Twas nice we went to an italian place called La botte.

On the way home in the car we where having a discussion about the downfall of the catholic church and the goveernment out sourcing all its aid social service work to non government organisations. The government using NGO’s as a cheap alternative to doing the work itself. I was enjoying the conversation and i think lionel was too, but then in a loud voice james piked up and siad “I wonder whats on the radio?”.

kids these days.

“few” is generally 3 or more, like “I’ll be there is a few minutes” or “can you throw me a few easter eggs”

couple is 2 “grab me a couple of cans”

But how long is “ish” ? If someone says to you “I’ll be there at nine-ish”
My original theory is that “ish” is probably a 15 minute window either side of the stated time, so anywhere between 8:45 and 9:15 in this case. But then steve said to me if someone said “I’ll be there at nine” and they came at 8:55 you would say there where early. So “ish” is only after the stated time.

But is “ish” 15 minutes or is it less is it more like 10 minutes.

Jo Kemp is the bomb!

I”m just an adventurous kind of guy.
Today i went to Hazelbrook and back on the train, to pick up steves camera. David came too.

here i am on the flipside of a 15 hour sleep.

ahhhh the bliss.

in the last 36 hours i have had 45 minutes solid sleep.

Today at work was a bit of a struggle, but still kind of fun. I had to pace my eneregy so that i would last the whole day. And now i have lastd the whole day.

Its 7:30pm and i’m going to go to bed..goodnight all.

we made it a bit past Bery down south. So tired. I”m at work now, but its ok cause i finnish at 6:30 today so only 8 and a half hours to go until i can go home to bed.

The challenge:

Drive as far away from hornsby as possible and be back in hornsby by 10am tomorrow.

The time: 12:30am

The team:

Tom, David, Helen, Howie

bloody hell, i’m tired already.

(sorry jen)

train of thought canceled for today only! My brain is sorry for any inconvenience caused.

flirting is a stupid word because no one knows the true meaning. When does something change from being harmless fun to being flirting, everyone has different opinions as to where that line is.
So in some company you will be accuesed of flirting and in other company you are just seen as having fun.

Tom and I ventured off to entech today, that was fun. Lots of big expensive lighting rigs and stages and sound gear. I did a bit of talking with people in stalls about getting gear for work, that was fun, I felt like a bit of an “industry” man.
We went into some demonstration by EVY Speakers, that was funny, a geeky guy spoke, we had no idea what he was talking aobut, and they had a Christian band on the stage called “Electric Praise” they where there so we could hear the speakers in action.
Bit strange having a Christian band in the middle of a trade fair.

Then this afternoon I was up at jacks, we had a lot of fun this afternoon, involving a lot of rice and a lot of cleaning up…

Then tonight I went to jo’s house. Good old jo. Barbs got me packing boxes with books, cause they are moving on Thursday. I cam across a book called “Maintaining your household” I told barbs she should read it.

Fun fun, then tommy drove me home.

Now I think its food time then bed time..

I haven’t been eating much lately. Silly me..sorry jane.