the future is clear

Its good being able to have a clear view of what i’m going to be like when i’m an old man.

The Unfortunate thing is that i’ll probably be a grumpy old muppet

the train driving milkman

Its amazing how early thoughts and dreams are still valid in your life now.
I can remember when I was in kindergarten how I wanted to be a milkman, because we got our milk delivered in the posh glass bottles with the foil lid. And the milkmen drove around in the cool little truck that you could sit in the back of. I used to tell mum that when I would become a milkman I would come and deliver her milk every morning.

I was thinking about it today, and yeah! Being a milkman would still be a cool job. The thought of sitting in the back of a truck delivering mil is still thrilling and exciting.

My other dream when I was little was to be a train driver.

This is a dream that has stuck further forward in my mind for many years. I often think about driving trains. And it is still a job that excites me. Even to this day sometimes I pretend to be a train guard when I’m in the shower and I lean out of the shower recess and look up and down the platform before reaching above me and pressing the door close button, then the bell. Trains excite me, always loved them. I think when I got old enough to realise that I would never be able to drive a train it didn’t dampen my dreams and wants. I still wanted to drive trams. I had all these thoughts like “Vision impaired driver takes to the rails”. I can see the Advocate now!.

But its weird how it has stuck with me for so long, I still get on trains and wish I was driving it. I still get excited when you can see into the drivers compartment. I’m a kid stuck in a young mans body.

Just the other day at workjen caught me driving my finger around the white board. I was off in another land, pretending I was driving a bus through the city, eating my lunch not thinking about the rest of the world. She shocked me a little and I got a bit embarrassed cause there I was a 21 year old fella driving around a white board..
I kept driving after jen had arrived, but it wasn’t the same, I know had this image ti upkeep, I couldn’t be the little kid inside me anymore.

Its really fun, I think you should all let the little kid out and have a play every now and then. Don’t loose your childhood dreams, let them live on.

Gone gone gone…

As of 1pm this affternoon, i now owe optus absolutely no money…I am debt free.

ahhhhhhhh

Bring on the sleep….

I need more sleeping and time and time for robert, where its just roberts time where i can do what i want with my time. that would be nice.

goodnight world.

sleep well.