In the last week i have deleted over 3,880 spam coments off my blog.
stupid damn online casino.
Its costing about $1,000 for the whole camera up the bum experience.
Maybe i should offer to do it myself, i’ve had training with cameras.
I had to go to the gastroenterologist today to hand in some forms in preparation for next Friday. (camera up the bun day). So jenny drove me to pennant hills and I went into the medical centre place. Anyway I walked up to the door and began to grasp the handle, I pulled it towards me and the handle came off the door into my hand. So I then had to dig my finger into the hole so I could open the door.
I proceeded up to the reception desk with the door handle in my hand.
“Hello this is your door handle and also here are my forms”
drawn by justine
I was sitting her thinking I have nothing to blog, its all going downhill, all my readers are leaving, I haven’t said anything interesting in months. The only thing that keeps people interested is if I talk about poo, and I haven’t had any poo stories in the last few weeks. what am I going to say. I don’t have any pictures to put up nothing. I don’t really have anything to whinge about. Although post could be classified as a whinge.
Anyway the point of this post is to try and prove to myself that I do have stuff the share with the world.
Lets see what been happening with my life over the last few months. Worl=k has bbeen crazy and a bit overwhelming at times with no sign of it slowing down anytime soon. Sickness oh yes I got sick. Its funny because I have been sick with this gut thing for about 12 months which is quite a ling time, but its just sort of become normal that I don’t see myself as sick. I really am fine. you know how after a while you just adapt to stuff and it becomes normal. Like when you get a new pair of jeans, at first they are all new and weird and uncomfortable but then after a while you don’t notice they are just jeans they are comfy and normal. Anyway but I got more sick didn’t I had the infections and stuff. But they are gone. Oh and I started going out with jenny that was a good move I really love jenny. We have been going out for just over 3 months now. I can really see myself marrying that girl. I think we have a come a long way together over the last few months. It’s a bit strange because we spend all day with each other at work sitting at desks right next to each other and so much of our work is together. But then after work what do we do. we hang out more. and on weekends we hang out too. There doesn’t seem to be a possible overload of each other. And frankly I don’t want there to be, I like spending so much time with jenny. I do need to watch It a bit so I don’t neglect other people. I think that’s what I did badly last year. With work and stuff I sort of neglected the other people around me, everyone really, I was never home and never hung out with my friends cause I didn’t have a healthy balance. Its not like that with jenny but I don’t want it to become like that. cause it sicked I never saw anyone and never hung out with them, I was just howie, they guy that appeared sometimes and that we used to hang out with. So this year I’ve tried to change that. I’m still not excelling at it there has been heaps to do at work and been spending any spare time I get sleeping or with jenny. But I have spent more time with other people. Still looking for a healthy balance.
Emotionally how am I going, well pretty good I think. A bit tense and overwhelmed at times with work stuff, but then have to try and remind myself that I work for God and he wont give me more than I can handle. The only way it will become more than I can handle is if I don’t hand my work over to God in the first place and I try and do it alone.
Not that god wont make it challenging cause he will but he wont make it impossible.
So I think that’s another growth area for me just trusting in god and his plans for me, and not trying to do work without him.
How am I going spiritually. well that’s a bit of a grey area. I think to be really truthful I have been really close to god since about 2000. That may shock some people. But I think its true, my relationship with god is really up and down I don’t really get angry at God or upset with him, I think its more that I just haven’t had a good church home and I have bad habits which have helped push me further from gods presence. Like quiet times, I would love to have a quiet time everyday and the amount of times I have started and done it for a few days and then just stopped is ridiculous. I guess I’m telling you all this because in telling you I have sort of become accountable to you all. I would like to change I would like to get close to god again I would like to be a place where I thank god for everything, where I send up prayers as I’m crossing a road where I spend time in the bush in his creation just pondering and thanking him. I want to be in a place where I feel his hand on mine where ever I go. I want to be connected into a church, in fellowship with others, sharing our walks with each other.
I’ve started going to Thornleigh Baps a bit and I really like it. Good teaching good worship a real strong focus on mentoring and stuff. I like it I think as my braveness grows I’ll find it a really awesome church. So yes you heard it here first I think it will be my new church home.
In saying all that it sounds like I have been depressed for the last 5 years. that’s not true I have had some really awesome and profound times with God and have grown in my faith in some ways. Its just easier to pinpoint the stuff that’s not going as well as it could be.
It scares me how much people do look up to me sometimes and follow me not in a big headed I’m so good kind of way. Just like young people looking up to me and I have a job to be as much like Jesus as I can. And I fail, a lot so I really need to re-ignite my walk which God so that I can be in touch with him and look after all the young people I work with and everyone I interact with.
Ty and I where talking about our sort of work once and talking about me not having a church and stuff. He had a good analogy. Its like a sponge full of water, you can wring it out for a long time and get water out of it but eventually it will run dry unless there is a tap above it replenishing its water. Like the work I’m doing is good, and people are growing and changing and its all awesome but if I’m not getting replenishment from god then I’ll just run dry and the life will be squeezed out of me.
So there you go, may have shocked some of you, its not often I talk about god stuff on here.
that might do for now.
there will be a comprehension exam on the above later on.
Australian films can either be pretty good or just plain didge. And when comedians make films generally they arnt all that good. Take for example Jimeons last film “The Craig” it was absoutle bodgness. Bad Eggs, Crackerjack all films that where not terriffic.
Anyway THe Extra was pretty good, it was funny, jimieon didnt go over the top and made a pretty good film. Quite a few camios from burried aussie stars and also comedians. Shaun Mcallif was of course absolutely fantastic.
A film about a movie extra who wants to be noticed, some very funny lines and sketches, the story not all that fantastic bust still worth a watch.
i give it 4 / 7
tonight after church and after maccas.
Myself and jenny went to greater union and saw “The Interpreter”.
It was a good film, Nicole Kidman playing an interpreter at the UN headquarters
No love story really which was nice. There was explosions, drama, suspense. A good film all round. I think quite educational too, seeing inside the UN and how the big congress thing works. Also anything to do with Africa holds my interest quite well too.
I give it 5.5 / 7
My day yesterday.
Its fun having a phone that takes photos.
first I had lunch in the foodcourt with david.
Then I met up with jenny and josh
That was good to see joshy again. Hes back down to tassie today.
Then I went to the AFL with Debbie and Jenny.
That was fun too, I didn’t get as excited and disappointed as the girls but I did have a lot of fun.
I went to get my haircut just before. I like having the habit of always going to the same place, been going there for years and years. Today that habit didn’t seem quite so comfortable.
I walked in and there was no one waiting so this big dud came over and said ok sit down.
So I went and sat in the chair and he asked me what I want. “I said short back and sides like a number 3”
Now that bit was all fine it wasn’t until he began that it became uncomfortable. I’m telling you this guy is some gangster from the hood. Most hairdressers use scissors to cut hair, this guy might as well have used a butcher’s knife. He opened up the scissors wide open and instead of snipping he just sliced with one side of the scissor blade whilst using the other hand to yank my hair out of my head.
His gold bling bling clanging as he yanked and sliced away at my scalp.
The other thing that stood out was the fact that he was wearing a hat. I’m not sure if it is all that re-assuring to have your hairdresser wearing a hat. Because chances are he cuts his own hair.
Anyway my hair cut isn’t too bad
The flies in central Australia are anoying. Not like in sydney where they are all domesticated and stuff, you know you can walk down the street with flies on a leash. You can have pet flies in your house. but out here in the desert its all dodgy fliues, wild, aggressive and untamed flies.
They have a habit of flying in your ears, mouth, nose (but only my left nostral).
ummm thats all
Well here we are on day 3 of our trip out to uluru.
We sure are in the middle of nowhere, you can tell when you are in a rural area when the internet is dialup and the grouynd is brown.
dont reallty have much to say.
Oh jenny is wearing a “howie’s halfpipe” syhirt. thats fun. Free advertising.
my phone still doesnt work.
I tried my sim card in jenny’s phone tonight and it works just fine. so yay for my trusty old sim card.
i stepped in dog poo whilst hanging out my washing just before. And due to the length of my jeans i got poo on my jeasn too. So i took my jeasn off (and shoes). washed off the poo then put my jenas in the washing machine.
After a while…..
I thought…”where is my phone?”
I looked everywhere. then when the washing machine hit the spin cyclet dring thing i found my phone, i hear the noise…..boonk….boonk….boonk….boonk.
Yep my phone wsa in the pocket of my jeans.
A nice clean phone now, although it doest work.