Archive for October, 2007
Caution: possible feelings ahead
I thought i should blog about my Nan so as not to give the illusion that i have no feelings or emotions.
I have to say that so far her death hasn’t really got to me all that much. hmmm thats probably not the best opening sentence following a statement highlighting that i do have feelings and emotions.
Anyway it hast really effected me that much. I think partly because i dont really know how to deal with death, so far in my life Nan is the first person to die who i have had a real strong connection with, so all the experience i have of death i have been somewhat removed from the experience so in this case i think i’m automatically removed because thats my default death response.
My Nan was such a great lady and i would say that through my childhood she was my best buddy. She loved me so much and i loved her. I’m sure everyone else in my family would conclude it was because she spoilt me so much that we got on so well. but i think its just casue we liked each others company, she was cheeky and fun and if i dont say so myself i’m cheeky and fun.
She knew how much i loved trains and adventures and due to the fact she never drove she was the queen of public transport. We went everywhere together, she made boring towns like blackheath fun!
She was always interested and supportive of everything i did, always coming to events and displays and all sorts of things.
She loved telling me how much she didnt like me, and how she never had and the moment she first sore me she thought ‘yuk’. And for me telling hr how old she was and that i have never liked her, offering to count her wrinkles each time we sore each other. But it was all just a cheeky cover for how much we loved each other.
The last few years have been tough, she suddenly aged so much and it was hard for me to see her casue she wasnt the Nan i was used to, she was extremely weak and vulnerable, her mind was scatty at times. It was tough i couldnt deal with her not being the same. the worst moment was just a month or so ago sitting in her room saying goodbye knowing that this would probably be our last encounter and for the first what felt like hours she didnt even know who i was.
I guess part of the reason her death isnt such a big thing is that she has in a kind of way been dead for a while. not to be harsh but she just wasnt Nan. Sure there were elements and i loved seeing her be cheeky in the last few years with the little energy she had, telling jenny how much she didnt like me and if i ever casue jenny trouble that jenny should just wallop me. I’m glad jenny got to meet my Nan.
So no tears from me as yet, but who knows mayble i’ll flood the place at the funeral.
can you tell its late at night, i can boy oh boy you would get a post like this if i was wide awake.
Kevin Rudd’s new recycling program
good on him I say, another reason why i’m voting kevin in 07
My Nan
Gwendaline Mary Wilkes
11th February 1916 – 30th October 2007
a smile on my face
Tarasai just got voted out of Australian Idol.
It’s a good day for Australia
fatty man
I bought new pants to take to kenya in august casue i didnt fit my old pants, i now dont fit th new pants.
Today we where at kirri and tims wedding and all day and night i was in pain from the tightness around my waist.
before marriage i was around 60kg give or take.
right now 75kg
oh yeah! 15kg of pure fat!
a step above the F1
I want to stay here, its the coolest hotel ever!
Once you have finished your staay you decide how much you want to pay for sleeping in the tube.
Michael Clayton
Last night wife and went to see Michael Clayton
It was a good film, I was really enjoying it. I wsa trying to get comfy in my seat and in the process put my hand on something, I fiddled with it a while not really knowing what it was. Eventually i picked it up during a bright bit in the film to see what it was. It was a chicken bone! it was gross!
Anyway the move was good, clooney is a hottie.
5.5 / 7
eye candy
I got a haircut today. As i walked out of the expensive hair boutique back to the office all I could hear was wolf whistles and there where hot ladies everywhere wanting my number and trying to give me theirs as they grabbed my bum.
Its tough being so hot, you get RSI from writtig your phone number so much.
first aid man
Well today was the second and final day of our work first aid course. I last did a first aid course in 2001 and this one was heaps easier much less stuff to remember.
Michael DeBeer (our trainer) picked on me today, we had to do a demo on CPR to show we could do it, everyone else had, no blockages or stuff stuck in their airways or anything, i had to go last and do mine in front of everyone and i had everything, stuff stuck in the throat then when i started CPR the person came alive again and then i had to clear vomit out of their mouth, i passed and did well but everyone else had it easy.
then when it was certificate time, my name was printed wrong it said “Robert Howie smells’ printed on it.
apparently soneone last week when we filled out the roll thing wrote ‘smells’ after my name and so when michael printed the certificates he printed exactly what was on the roll. After a while he handed me my real one.
the winner of the debate
Is………The Worm
So the big debate between rudd and howard was on tonight, I watched snippets.
Channel 9 found a way of getting the worm they had 90 in their sydney studio hooked up to the worm and they just put the worm over the top of their feed from canberra. Soneone in canberra got angry and cut their feed, but channel 9 had a back up feed, that was cut so in an effort to keep their broadcast they used the sky news feed and just put the worm over the top.
funny stuff.
I’m sure all the news in the morning will be about the worm, and all the press photographers that werent allowed to go in and take photos even though they had previously been given permission
taking out the trash!
I now have 10.4GB free space on my lappy, its a beautiful thing. I inly had 2GB left before
6 more weeks of this………..
elections are boring, lets just vote now.
I’ve decided seeing as howard wont allow the worm at the debates i’m going to put up my own worm that he cant do anything about. Here is how the worm sits at the moment.
just like microsoft
wordpress seems to be running in some kind of safe mode.
nothing a slap of the computer cant fix
first aid, great for picking up
I met this really hot chick who exposed her chest to me today, we even pashed. Her name was ‘little Anne’.
unfortunately i had to put her back in her bag and wont see her again til next week.
I dont think we will have a long relationship, she seems pretty open to exposing her self to pretty much everyone, even jenny gave her a pash.
emo fingers
I was just doing the dishes like a good husband, but first i had to put away a bowl in the cupboard, as i put the bowl away a big glass bloody bowl think that weighs 500kg dived out of the cupboard and landed on my foot. it didnt break but it hurt.
eventually i start washing dishes, in goes a plate, wash wash wash out goes a plate, in goes a saucepan lid, wash wash wash, out goes a saucepan lid, in goes a measuring jug, smach crack owwwwwwwwwww!, out comes bleeding fingers.